It's Probably Nothing

~ I wrote this in March 2012, it seems fitting to post it for Breast Cancer Awareness Month.   It's based on something that I went through, but everything is OK~

It's Probably Nothing

It’s something small, she said

The only indication that something is there in my body

Something that doesn’t belong there
But they can’t discuss it with you               

You get a letter       
This needs to be checked in six months

You put it out of your head

Six months later you finally make another appointment

It’s not so scary this time. 

You’ve seen the moon craters and spider webs from the x-ray
and the ocean waves of the sonogram.

But it’s still there.
They won’t tell you what it is.
You resolve to put it out of your mind
There is nothing you can do
And you go to hear some music
Take your mind off things

And this picture behind the musician
looks like a giant breast
With a purple splotch
Where the techs keep looking

She tells you not to move after she takes the x-ray
You are trapped anyway
Where would you go?

You try to have a good attitude
It’s nothing.

But you fear deep down that you are going to have to deal with this.
What armor can protect you?
What shield?
It’s inside you.